#30. SET and The Potential Rapist

Way back in February, I decided to join RITM-ARG's Self Empowerment Training seminar, dubbed as the SET. Honestly, I was thinking if I still needed this because I was already managing myself well. And since I wasn't really doing anything productive, I decided to join the last batch, thinking that the last batch would probably have less participants, and I would be more comfortable with a smaller group.

I arrived at the venue 4 minutes late. I was so anxious and kind of scared that I might stumble across someone in my social circle. I was so anxious that when I went up to the room, I got so dizzy and nauseous that I almost consumed an entire Tic-tac box. A few minutes later, I gave in. Sumuka na ang lola niyo sa banyo sa ibaba.

Pag akyat ko, nagdala si Jon ng pizza para sa amin. Syempre, lamon ang sangkapusitan, including me. Siyempre nung una, shy shy ang effect, pero sa totoo lang kating kati na ako makipag chikahan at makipagbaklaan, pero may hilo effect pa ako kasi kakasuka ko lang dahil sa anxiety ko. Feeling ko naka Estiva ako!

We started quite late, and I got the pleasure of knowing the following people, which I hope, and according to our facilitator, would be an additional entry to my friendship sphere:

Let me describe them according to their CD4 count:

@CarlooCarloo - Si ate ay pinaglihi sa beauty pageant. Na warn na ako ng isa pang SET mate from way back na si ateng nga daw literally breathes beauty pageant oxygen. So medyo nakakapressure siyang magsalita parang laging may live audience sa paligid! Yung tipong ang tanong lang ay "Kumusta" pagkatapos pag final Q&A agad ang sagot niya! LOVETTE! feeling siya ang gay version ng aking Kuya.

@health_worker5 - kilala ko na si ate way back. Siya pinaka unang twitter friend ko sa Twitterlandia. may jowa na siya recently lang, si @b0y_plus , na kasama din namin sa SET. In fairness bagay naman sila at maayos naman ang impression ni kuya, at compatible sila kasi pareho silang health worker, parehong pusit, halos magkasing tangkad, at parehong medyo may kalakihan. ECHOS. I love you guys. Alam niyo yan. Kahit isa sa inyo ang malakas maghilik.

D**S- ETO LALAKING LALAKI PUTANGINA GUSTO KO CHUPAIN!

...sorry na-carried away ako. Ayun nga. Lalaking lalaki ang effect niya at I can tell na ang ganda ng katawan niya hay nako kung medyo talagang hindi pa ako nagbabago aaurahan ko ito eh! tapos nakaka L pa yung thought na estudyante siya. Hay, signs of ageing, parang matrona na ang peg ko sa life. Pero sorry, naunahan ako ni:

@bonbon+ - si ate ay 19 years old palang ay pusit na, pero kebs! In fairness sa kanya ha! hanga ako dahil he is managing things very well! *clap *clap *clap. I salute him for being such a good sport the entire SET duration and for handling things in such a way na parang beyond his biological age. Maghawak kamay tayo sa ngalan ng pagyabong ng magandang pagititinginan nila ni D**S.

@pozzie_07 - NALOKA LANG AKO KASI KAMUKHA NIYA YUNG OFFICEMATE KO. Pero siyempre becky version siya kasi straight si officemate. Naririnig ko siyang tumatalak before the session began pero di ko naman nakita fez niya right away, akala ko bully pero in fairness, very warm ang pagkakahulma ng mukha ni ateng at accommodating naman ang disposition niya. Feeling ko pag bumorta ng mga kahit 30% ito eh mas lalaki ang market share ni ate. Malaki ang potential!

@poz_hero - Ay eto in fairness. wala akong ma-say! kakaloka! lakas maka MMK ng story, pero di naman heavy drama ang category. Tamang blend ng comedy, romance, sci-fi, action, horror, thriller, suspense, fantasy at may kaunting pagka-art film ang peg ng life niya na talaga namang may kurot sa aking puso.

N**O - malakas maka contact lens. Nakakaloka lang. Nakakaloka lang din ang story niya about his wardrobe na umaayon ang size sa level ng kabaklaan niya. So ngayon full blown becky na siya, fit na shirts at mga skinny jeans na ang peg niya. Gandang di mo inakala ang drama.

J* - eto din di mo aakalaing becky! Aakalain mong pinaglihi sa testosterone si ate! At medyo malakas din maka MMK ang buhay pero talaga namang nakamamangha sa kabila ng lahat ng mga nakakalokang events sa buhay niya at mga babaeng nakeme niya. Sa ngalan ng Fungal infection, talaga namang kapuri-puri!

J** - WHAT IS A GROUP SESSION NG WALANG DRAMA! ABA SIYA YUN. Siya yung dramang di mo inakala! at medyo may pagka MMK din ang peg ng life story, heavy drama category!!! Pero nakakataba ng puso dahil on the second day, para bang umepek ang group effort ng batch na kumbinsihin siyang mag ARV. Isa ito sa mga highlights ng session namin- to be able to help a fellow pusit to at least open his mind and alleviate the pain and burden he is going through.

I hope that I will be able to maintain this newfound friendship with these people, and I am hoping that our friendship in the future transcends the Virus that binds us...

NOW ON TO THE CHISMIS PART.

Setmates, hindi ko ito agad sinabi sa inyo kasi ayoko maawardan ang roommate ko ng sash. Pero eto ang nangyare:

So my roommate and I went to our designated room. He had already been sending off strange signals from the start. When he found out that I wanted to get a body massage that night, he offered to massage my back and I was thinking it was just a friendly offer. Thinking that maybe I could save money and some time vs. getting a professional masseur, I decided to let him massage me. Actually, okay naman. So natuwa ako. And I have always been fond of getting massaged na mga tig 5-10 minutes lang, by my friends, and even officemates in the office. Take note, back massage lang ito. yung sa may taas lang na portion. So humiga ako, pero umupo lang din ako after.

So when I told him na "Ok na.", he was still insisting na  he will give me a full body massage after his takes a bath, which was really weird. But I dismissed the idea that he was up to something.

Hindi din naman ako engot not to sense if someone is up to something. Pareho naman kaming bakla, and at some points of my life naman eh umaaura din naman ako.

So fast forward. We decided to do some light drinking sa hotel bar, and when it was finally time to go back to our rooms, I took a bath, performed my nightly rituals, and when it was time to finally sleep and lie down, I was wondering why he was on my bed. So I asked, "san mo gusto, dito, o doon?" 

Then he remarked "gusto mo tabi nalang tayo" He even offered earlier to watch porn together which was VERY VERY ODD. That was actually the red flag. But I was too understanding to dismiss him.

I was still shrugging off the idea that he was having a booty call all along. In fairness to him, he was sensitive enough to go back to his designated bed. So I snugged myself  under the sheets, removed my shirt (I sleep topless), at dumapa.

Then all of a sudden, he said, "ayan sige mamassage na kita" and before i was able to react, he just got on top of my back and started massaging me.

I was just shocked. Siguro na massage pa niya ako for about a minute because I was trying to think of a constructive way to tell him na "FUCK OFF GET OFF ME". Until I realized I couldn't think of any polite way to do so, so i told him, "okay na sige, tama na." But he continued massaging me, and I continued resisting. Imagine, nakapatong pa din siya sa likod ko ha.

Until naging super aggressive siya and niyakap na niya ako, he grabbed my left nipple and then dinakma niya yung balls ko. Syempre I was resisting, and I didnt want to cause a commotion by throwing him off. Violence was still the least of my priority. 

He even said "you know I really like you, one night lang naman ito". SO TALAGANG NALOKA LANG AKO. Then thank God and he got off my back, and went to his bed. I was still very understanding and mustering my self to let the event pass. I turned off the lights and told him na lets forget this, I wont tell anyone. But I realized na baka mamayang madaling araw eh nakasubo na ang bird ko sa kanya. And it was awkward, I was really intending to get some quality sleep.

Ang ending, doon ako natulog sa room nina @health_worker5 , mabuti nalang at magkatabi sila ni @b0y_plus sa isang kama.

And yes, I promised him never to tell anyone, but I broke that promise. Di ako ganoon ka bait para kamkamin yung harassment na ginawa niya sa akin.

So to conclude, My SETmates, ayan ang nangyare. No name dropping. para sa group nalang natin ito. Sabi nga di Doc, what happens dun sa SET, remains there, except siguro sa mga lessons na madederive natin.

So, Roommate, sorry, pero sana nag isip ka muna bago ka nagpadala sa libog mo. I need to flush this out of my system, thus, I'm writing about it.

In a nutshell:

Either ako ay talagang sobrang hot at gwapo or may aura akong pang one night stand na medyo ka cheapan ang peg. KEME.

For the record, kahit na si Jon Avila yung roommate ko, di ko siya gagalawin. 

I attended the SET to have friends.